So life never ceases to amaze me. Wow, that’s such a cliché. You know why? ‘Cause it happens all the freakin’ time! To everyone. Everyone says it at one point or another, and so I’m saying it now.
I dropped that stupid fashion history class. The good news in that is that I got all my money back – just got the check in the mail today for the full amount. Good school, Santa Fe Community College. But terrible class. I suppose not so much in that the class sucked, just that it wasn’t a right fit for me. In this adventure of trying to find “myself” (omg another horrible cliché – sorry), I’m constantly realizing that I should be taking different approaches to things that befit my personality and tastes.
I’ve long ago determined that academia is simply not for me. Yet I ignored this and decided to try for a certificate in something. Anything. I picked fashion design because I did it before for a year and a half and was pretty okay at it. That was eight years ago, though. Now I’m finding that all I really want to do is apply what I’ve learned to my own ambitions. Not relearn things just for a piece of meaningless paper.
In discussing this with my friend, she seemed to agree and said, “All you really need is to be good at something.” The paper means nothing. Your effort and skill and determination is what it takes.
I’ll tell you one thing that history of fashion class taught me: None of the designers we read about in those first eras had to take a history of fashion class to be good in their field. Chanel didn’t. She made hats for a hobby and could barely do arithmetic when she started. Paul Poiret could barely sew. Mariano Fortuny was a costume designer for theatre and never considered himself to be a “fashion designer” or subject “to the whims of fashion”. They did their own fucking thing because they wanted to. Damn it, so will I.
I don’t want to make things other people will like. If they like it, that’s even better. But really it’s all about me. Me, me, me. I wanna make stuff I like. So nya.
Okay, breathing now. Sorry for the attitude there. Just had to vent a little. Really, I’m quite silly when it comes to these epiphanies. I stressed about that stupid class all day Monday until my husband told me very frankly, “if you don’t like it, why don’t you just drop it?” Shock! Gasp! I couldn’t! I was dedicated! But to what, I hadn’t yet understood. Now I do, and I’m much happier for it.
Deco-den & Poly Clay
So because I love all things Japanese, I’ve been reading all sorts of magazines and articles. I get the Lolita Bible, which sadly isn’t translated but has all kinds of really great pictures for ideas! The other I get on my iPad, a digital version of Tokyo Kawaii Magazine. Yes, kawaii. That means “cute” in Japanese. Hello Kitty on crack.
o.O Must have more . . .
I’m sure it must have been around now for a while and I’m just now entering this brave new world of kawaii and deco-den because I’m slow. Glitter, plastic rhinstones, Hello Kitty, and cutsie cabochon sweets with whipped cream clay. I don’t use my cell phone often enough to justify such elaborate decorations on it, but that’s one thing you can do. It’s over-the-top decorations. I confess. I love it. I wanna do this.
For now, I’m experimenting with clay. Polymer clay is kind of expensive. A little brick for $3 can really add up. As luck would have it, a friend of ours just ended up buying a couple boxes full from a lady who was selling it on the cheap. He wasn’t using it. His wife wasn’t using it. I mentioned my new clay fascination in conversation and he brought over all the clay he bought. My eyes popped out when I saw how much of it there was. Very good friend.
After watching a couple YouTube videos (what a great source for tutorials!) I decided to experiment a little. Here’s what I came up with.
A couple more tutorials maybe, a few more supplies and who knows what I’ll come up with. I’m learning about all kinds of things, like how to make cabochons and use moulds, and epoxy resin to make faux gems. The poly clay is the kind you bake, and so we just got a $20 toaster oven to have in the studio here. I also went to modes4u.com and bought a couple of the Japanese “fuwa fuwa” kits to make glittery cakes and ice cream rings.
After spending a couple hours in the Hobby Lobby down in Santa Fe, I finally decided on some fabric for a new lolita dress that I’d like to make. I need a dress form though, but we’ll see about getting one in a while. For now, I’m having fun with the clay and deco-den stuff.